"اشتقت لك كثيراً... لست أنا فقط و لكن الشام كلها مشتاقة لسماع ضحكتك الجميلة"Their letters have killed every possible moment without nostalgia in my heart. I'm ready to go home. New York is a beautiful place to live but its really just time to go home...
And actually I AM going home. Finally, the time has come! Soon after Eid, I'll be departing to Damascus (and Jordan & Lebanon). I've been living so soul-less ever since I've started planning for the trip. Working, studying, and stressing myself all for the sake of leaving without responsibilities left behind.
Regardless, my soul has been eating shawerma long before I will be. Has been walking the alleys, living the night life, meeting Tartous, threading jasmine necklaces and bracelets, having coffee to Fairouz on the veranda, been embracing loved ones... been torturing my mind restless... in somehow, a good way. I'm just ecstatic!
Images floating before my eyes as I drive, as I try to fall asleep, I'm constantly in lala land... sigh. I can't wait to run into the arms of Damascus and cry to the incantational call for prayer the first morning I arrive. I can't wait to be jet lagged and awake for crazy hours. I cant wait to see my family and friends. I truly missed them. Looking forward to the endless, sleepless nights full of conversations and laughs. I can't wait to feel safe as I walk the streets at night. I can't wait to feel home!
So, the countdown begins and....
My beloved Syria, here I come :)
22 comments:
aww, hamdillah your finally getting the chance to go! :D :D :D :D betcha your excited (; lol
when & how long?
Tolene: alf al7amdella!
Beyond excited. Now, what you read at tooteh.com stays at tooteh.com!
You stay quiet and not tell until I say so. I'm surprise going to some people, so don't ruin it. shhhh!!! :D
So its official now? ;)
Tooteh... when you say where you soul has gone it makes me wonder of the person that I've grown up with. The way you talk about Syria and the mid-east makes me feel your'e a different person (from how I know you here) when you go. I don't know you in your element and it makes me feel as though I'm missing a large part of personality.
It makes me question, who are you?
(Too deep?)
Welcome Home:-)
-- Dann, you grew up with the Americanized Batoul. Theres a whole other side :)
I am indeed quite different there. And I guess thats what makes me nostalgic all the time. Its like "going back to basics". Standards and quality of life are different. My "element" and values remain what they are and in reality, this is why I remain an outcast to an extent.
I'm not going to sit and elaborate on something that wouldn't matter to you. I try to reflect who my company is. kapeesh?
-- abufares: Ahh! feels good to hear :D Thank you..
Yalla hanet!
You are wrong my dear... It matters a great deal to me!! I am sure that I'll still like you and I have a feeling that I'll consider you the sweetest sister like I do now. I'm just saying that it would be nice to know you in your element, where you feel most at home, since I've never seen that side of you.
-- KJ indeed.. :)
-- Dana: Its funny, just when you think you know everything about a person, theres more to it, eh? lol
Remember the crazy Kamil party nights? Thats more like the Syrian me lol. Fun, outgoing, crazy, extra habla LOL. A lot more easy going and happy!
Says one thing, we need to take a trip to Syria together. I'll show you around and give you a really good time with some of my friends there :D what do you say?
There's nothing like going home for a visit. I came back a couple of months ago, and will be back in October inshallah. The only dowside is that I get depressed after coming back. Have fun, and enjoy Damascus. It's the most beautiful city ever.
أنا سوري: There's absolutely nothing like the feeling. But I agree, I come back feeling more out of place than before and takes me a while to get back into reality.
La twasi 7arees, hehe I will have a blast, inshAllah! You too, enjoy it :) The time we're going is PERFECT weather!
I can totally relate to what you're saying, your feelings, your nostalgia, ... And I wish I was almost on my way as well. But who knows, maybe soon.
Good luck to you over there and have fun!
We always say we'll take a trip together, and you always go in the autumn (which is never a good time for me)... inshallah we will!! I'd really like it. :)
I hope this trip will quench your thirst. After you come back, I don't wanna hear any nagging for a year...understood?
Welcome back to Syria Batoul. I hope you've made the right choice. May Allah guide you towards success and happiness.
STOP THAT!!!
everytime you talk about that country, I just want to go there, and I cant!!!
its a great thing to meet with your family and friends! best regards, and please take a lot of photos, after all, if i ever go there, its going to be for photo taking!!!
I wanna go home :(
I really hope you have a blast B. I always say when I go back to visit for the first time, it cannot be during the summer. I think I will feel like a tourist and Jordan would be too crowded. I prefer to see it when it is normal...And normal is perfect for me. In the winter, it is calm and chilly/cold yet warm and intimate :)
Enjoy it.
-- Katia: Where is home?... I hope you find yourself gonig back soon :) Thank you so much!
-- Dana: But but.. its like the best time! lool inshAllah babe :)
-- Hamza: LOL looks like you've had it long time ago with me hahah.. No promises lol. A year is impossible! Lisa I come back with "why am I in hell hole again" attitude lool
-- XTR: Oh no no no, this is just a vacation :)
-- Ala': NO! You are to go visit my lovely Syria and take some AWESOME photographs. Plenty and I mean PLENTY to photograph and enrich your spirit on. Dont worry, I'll timeline my trip with photos lol.
-- soulblossom: Thanks babe... inshAllah you will go home soon too. How long have you been away? But indeed, it's intimate and sweet. Even the chilly breeze brush my hair with so much love *sigh* I will be going to Amman as well :) I'll send your regards to land and sea!
for a long time I didn't visit syria, inshallah on Eid I will.
Viva La Syria
yaay! xD
i have never been to syria..
its time i start planing a trip there
-- H: viva viva viva!!! Hope you enjoy your stay :)
-- Rosa: Horay! Horay! Horayyyy! I cant WAIT to see you. shta2telek moooooot ya benet. So good to be coming back! ;)
-- eshda3wa: It is time indeed!! Its just s different place. You'll love the simplicity :)
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