Eid here means mixed emotions. It's Eid, a celebration but also a suffocation. Every so often I have to remind myself why am here. At this point in my life, I see NO reason to keep me here anymore... or so I think.
Here... there's no traditional touch and unlike Ramadan, Eid is hard to maintain with spirit unless its on a weekend. Everyone has work! There IS no Eid! For those who could make it to Eid prayer, its awesome! Theres a 3-shift Eid prayer for the convenience of those who wish to pray. Sweets are passed outside and games are setup for the kids along with free gifts! But, when you have work and can't stick around, you come home at your usual time from work. You wait for non-existing people to come for a Eid visit and you end up eating the sweets you made yourself.
I want to go home!!! I want to wake up to that Damascene house filled with five families one filling every level and corner. I want to wash my face in the fountain centering our beautiful spacious home and throw jasmines into it. I want to rush into my abaya in the morning and hug all my cousins who are ALSO wearing abayas which we pre-planned to not have any matching colors for the big family breakfast. I want to relive those moments in my photo album.
I want to prepare breakfast with the girls and wait for the men to come from prayer. I want to run into my father's arms like all the other girls and try to envy each other with a more special Eid greeting. Then I want to dress and see people, walk the streets! Enjoy the crowd. Get lost in old Damascus and walk el assa3 (since its the only area open anyway). I want to feel the spirit all around me and I can't and I'm not.
So to those that matter the most to me, to all my loved ones literary round the world; It would be heaven if I could spend this holiday with you. May it be a joyful blessed time for all of us. Eid Mubarak :)
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kol 3am w enti b kheir tabousheh =)
InshAllah next Eid u spend it with all ur loved ones ;)
Oh tooteh ... 7ababtene aroo7 ma3ek :$
Inshallah next Eid you will be there, ow kol 3am ow ente be 7'eer dearo :hug:
This post made me cry. Not because of anything.... oh man I'm missing a whole lot of people this Eid. :.(
lost within: wo inty b alf khair taboushti. Ameen :)
lunzi: hehe ahla wo sahla! We go shopping for abayas before hand we'll take you there too lool funn! wo inty b alf khair honey. InshAllah, Allah kareem. *huugg*
Dana: I'm sowwy :/ Yallah we'll make the best out of it together ;] Be okay babygirl.
It's ok Tooteh...
Inshallah you'll see them soon.
But poor you! I don't think you guys in the US enjoy the Eid spirit like we do. This is because many Americans are non-muslims.
Eid Mubarak!
Kol saneh w enti salmeh w enshalla btkooni ma3hum next Eid :) Ameen ya rabb...
el post 7elo batoul w enti lamma wasaftee keef b3ed el salat w el greetings w heek bt5ali el wa7ad w hwa ykr2 ennu yt5ayyal wasfek kan dakeek sweety :) ....
Wish YOU HAPPY EID :)
kol 3am o enti b 5esr, yrn3ad 3aleaki o 3ala 7babaek bek 5ear o el sa3adeh ya rab :)
Kul 3am oo inti bikhair ..
When are you celebrating eid?
xtr lash: inshAllah :) Eid Mubarak!
vagueraz: wo inti salmeh sweetheart. Ameen, I really hope so. Thank you, I'm glad you liked it. Enjoy the real Eid 3ani wo 3anek lool
Maioush: yes 7babi ya 7abibti ;]
Qwaider: Wo inta b alf khair. Some are celebrating Tuesday some Wednesday, I opted to celebrate Wednesday. Following satellite. Besides, fasting one more day wont kill me and I rather play it on the safe side. semna 29 days, I can handle the 30th.
عيدكم مبارك وعساكم من عوادة
:)
I use to miss my folks...after reading Ur post now I miss them even more...have a nice Eid
i love how heart felt ur posts are, kel 3am w enti b5eir sweets w yen3ad 3leikun bil se77a wil 5eir :)
3eech embarek :)
kol 3am w inti b-alf kheir toot , eid mubarak for u and ur family .. :)
kol 3aam w entee b5eer :)
tooteh! inshalla 3al 3eed el kbeer you will be in Damascus :) work hard for it and inshalla you will spend it there with your loved ones :)
enjoy the nostalgia and keep the good memories. You never know if the next eid you'll spend in damascus is gonna be as enjoyable as you have imagined or not.
awww sweeetyyy...! 7azanteeni! yea it is pretty cool. but hey that gives u incentive to come to the middle east aktar! ;D
btw i was in Syria this Eid i came back on saturday..it was fun ou taghyeer. wish u were there wilik! MWAH! inshalla u will be dont be sad!
HAPPY EID! love ya!
Manal: to you too sweetheart.
triple m: I'm sorry :( Allah y3een.
proudpali: Thank you, yn3ad 3leke wo 3ala 7babek bl khair wil salameh :::Hug::
amu: ybarek 3emrak :)
dandooneh: wo inty bkhairrr :) to you and yours as well!
simsim: wo inty b alf khair.
KJ: Eid el kbeer, how I wish! Allah kareem. Trying...
Hamza: You're right but even if it wasn't great, it would still be THERE and with THEM! bdyyyyyyyyy!
Rosa: Good :( 7zani! I miss you bateekha.
btw, laish rubbing it in? lool wish I was there too.. bas inshAllah the best is YET to come. mmmmwah ffffffffffff (blowing the kiss to Jordan lol) love ya as much.
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